How do I react to things.
Shes in the middle of it all.
I don’t want to hurt her.
So all I can do is stand and watch in silence.
Nothing else I can say or do.
I feel helpless in so many ways.
The horns don’t even come out.
But the helpless feeling is there.
I don’t know how to tell her.
How I feel, it’s hard to explain.
So I choose to write about it.
Hopefully she will see it and understand.
If not then maybe the helpless feeling will pass.
With time, I would hate to see her change her life.
Almost like watching her from the outside
Not allowed to cross the line.
She has to deal with them all the time.
I don’t have to deal with her friends.
Most just know me by name and nothing more.
Not sure what to do about anything anymore.
So I shall forever sit in silence.
Let her do what she wants to
Watch and be helpless.