Hello all who choose to stop by and read the random bits of things from my life that I post. I’ve been debating about doing this for a while now but I’ve for the most part leaned towards not doing it because… Honestly I have no fucking clue, I think it’s just more so one of those things that I always seem to talk myself out of than advancing on. Well today is the day that I chose to advance on this thought.
Where do I begin ?… I guess best way to do so is say… Hello my name is Ken, why is it that when I say that I feel like I should be in a support group ?…
I live in Ontario Canada.. That’s as close as I’m going to say… I know Ontario is a big place but that’s fine… For those wondering no my real last name isn’t Kayoz it’s something I came up with some how for a pen name like 13-14 years ago when I was trying out various thoughts and it just kind of stuck so you’ll no doubt see it on many things… So by pen name that does mean I write, I mostly dabble in poetry. Although as of late I’ve found like I just sort of lost my happiness with it… but I’ll get to that in a few.
You may also know some of my other pen names: Kenny Roberts / Robbie Three / Mr. Love Zone
Or as I’ve called them “voices in my head” because they’re all me just different sides of me.. For those wondering let me go into more detail:
Kenny Roberts – Horror
Robbie Three – Erotica
Mr. Love Zone – Erotica
So why two with Erotica ?… People always asked what is MLZ’s real name … Well I always said “Robbie Three” it made him seem more human.
I have other writing names that pop up from time to time but nothing usually stays around like those three…
As I was saying I lost my happiness for poetry, back in 2013 I wrote a book called “Therapy” Which focused on my past and getting bullied and harassed in high school. So I decided I would do a 2017 version of it giving a different bit of therapy about my life, well I found that all I’m doing is rambling on and it didn’t turn out how I wanted it to. Right now it’s only released to one site I haven’t pushed it to Smashwords (my distributor) at this point in time but as I promised myself from the start I wouldn’t not turn away anything I write since there is clearly a reason why it came out of me so people get to read it no matter how good or bad it might be.
I haven’t chosen if I’m going to bring forth the books I’ve released to this site or not, right now it’s on my own site but I haven’t decided if I’ll bring them forward here right now.. I may dick around with that idea later on, but right now nothing like that is on my blog.
I’ve also dabbled in creating music but recently pulled all my music offline because of a discovery I made that basically said I can freely create music but I can’t sell that shit, so I pulled it offline so it was kind of a down point in my life when I read that cause I was getting very creative with what I was doing but clearly that’s not going to be the case
High school sucked for me, that’s all I’m going to say about that…
Speaking of which, many asked me “when did you start writing ?”
Back to the hell I go with this, it was in high school… I was taking a co-op class… a four period co-op class at that and don’t worry I’m not name dropping my teacher on this shit cause I discovered how much she fucking hates me, she loved my brother but I swear in her eyes I got horns and a fucking tail… anywho… during co-op class we got ask as a assignment “write about a dream or nightmare” … so I wrote about a nightmare, I wrote about me getting picked on and harassed daily… So what did that do for me ?… it got me sent to the principals office, my parents were called and I was sent to see the school’s psychiatrist.. Plus the bitch who taught the class read it out to the fucking class, like WTF … seriously ?
That hung over my head for the remainder of the school year before I dropped out, yes I dropped out… back in 1999… I felt it was the best choice for myself.
I was thinking of doing this blog when I was actually trying to mellow the fuck out in a bath tub, having a nice warm bath thinking to myself “I need to do something different” well I guess this will be it, I’m unsure of what all I will post. Really one doesn’t know, it’s no doubt random stuff that comes to mind.. Could be writing, could be a book, could be a…. Kenneth-ism
So what is a Kenneth-ism you ask ? It’s just little random things I post.. could be about anything… for example: Kenneth-ism: Is it a bad thing when your psychiatrist sees a psychiatrist about you ?
Well Christmas is coming up, Christmas is always a different time of year for my family… Back in December 20 2005 my Dad died in a car accident. So needless to say it’s changed the course of Christmas for the family. So 2005 was the last year the house had lights on it but yet we still continue to go through the motions at Christmas, well except for my sister… Her and her husband don’t do the gift exchange anymore, I kinda thought that’s what the rest of the family should try once. But I think Mom keeps pushing Christmas because it’s what “normal” families do.
I think that’s all I can really say about myself at this point in time to give you all a brief introduction into the man behind the text, at least for now… I’m sure I’ll post something else up in due time… It maybe multiple posts in one day, I honestly have no clue… time will tell..
For the time being I’m outta here….