She Believes

She believes that she should be worshiped.
No doubt also believes that she can walk on water.
Too bad that shit is frozen and I can see cracks forming

Each step she takes the cracks get bigger and I know she’s going to fall.
She hopes that her attitude will save her as her friends will come running.
But I know her truth won’t set her free, as she better be prepared to drown.

In her lies, as I look into her eyes.
She thinks she’s better than everyone else just cause she has tits and pussy.
Too bad that shit basically has a revolving door that she can turn on or off.

Or the puppet master can, I wonder if she’s ever made a decision in her own life.
Maybe she just left it up to the puppet master.
Whomever pulls that string.

I wonder who made her feel like that.
But yet she acts all down and depressed, which is just a front.
So she doesn’t show the world how she feels.

She complained that she got passed up for a promotion that she deserved.
When she was only in that position for a year or two.
Talk about entitled, that made her depressed.

Who had to save her that time.
Yup, it was me if that’s who you guessed.
I won’t be there next time.

I seen those inner workings
It’s like her own personal cult.
Say no to cults kids, say no to cults.



Stupid Bitch

I can’t believe for one second you think I have no clue.
It’s like watching you walk down a winding path I can see every step.
The lies that come out of your mouth on a constant.
But yet when it was me on the other end you kept saying no.

Playing mind games and other games is all you can do.
Since you know deep down nobody would want you.
The only thing you can offer them is sex, not love, not support.
Every thing else makes you complain.

Watching you go through all this, I know your going to get kicked out.
It’s a slippery path but it’s only a matter of time.
Your not smart enough to hide it.
In fact you’ve already slipped up.

You keep running up your credit card to please the other three.
But it’s funny to see.
That you would turn towards friends to do sexual things with.
I bet you fucked him constantly when we were together.

You’ve always been a puppet and someone was the puppet master.
I watched from a distance for so long.
It was just fucking torture how one could treat me like that.


You Wish You Knew What Love Was

You wish you knew what love was.
After everything finished you talked about “how you don’t need love”
All your looking for is to be used time and time again.
That’s all you want to be is constantly used.

Used by one guy after another, because you don’t know how to love.
You know how to use people and how to make people think you care.
But when it comes down to actual love, you only wish you knew.
It’s really quite sad that you want to be passed around like a paper plate.

Once that person is done with you, then passed to the next.
Then back to the first, it’s like they will just line you up.
But I guess you’ve realized that nobody truly does want you.
So you have to give yourself to your friends.

Since clearly no one wants them either.
I thought you were better than that.
Clearly I was wrong about that thought.

Wish I could have helped you.
I tried, now it’s time to watch the train, wreck.
You think you know everything and want to give attitude.
I’ll be sure to have the first seat to watch your life.

Watch it get flushed away.


Fucking Liar

I can’t believe how much you fucking lied to me over the years.
Relationship started out good then a few years later you told me
“No more sex, I’m not into it”
My mind began to question if I did something wrong.

After continuing the relationship for countless years
You began to fucking roll your eyes everytime I hugged or kissed you
Once again I thought I was doing something fucking wrong.
Walking around like a fucking little princess better than everyone.

I was too fucking blind to see that shit but yet there you were.
Starting to treat people like shit so I would bend over backwards for your fat ass.
Can’t fucking believe it but I did it anyway cause I thought I knew what love was.

I had a gut feeling that you were up to no good, so I played on my gut instinct.
Done it before with other things too and wasn’t wrong.
What does my gut show me.
You lied to me this whole time and your nothing but a whore.

Just wanting to use me so you got a place to stay.
Wanting to get away from your parents cause you didn’t get along with them.
When you knew you had it in with my family shit stopped and this attitude began.
Can’t fucking believe that someone would treat another person like this.

Second time I trusted my gut instinct it revealed to me more than words could have.
Your trying to get your friends to gang bang you because all of a sudden you had an “awakening”
Are you fucking kidding me right now ?
All these years I thought it was me, clearly you have the stop and go on that drive.

I learn more in one night than I did learn in thirteen fucking years.
I bet you even cheated on me too, cause that’s the type of person your turning out to be.
After I came across what I did, I began to shake in fucking anger.
How could you do this to me.

But it’s clear your a user, your the worst kind of fucking female out there.
Using your body to get shit in life, playing on peoples feelings.
I trusted you, I fucking loved you, I gave you a ring.
Clearly you had no feelings towards me, but you were just playing a role.

Never knew I was dating a washed up actress you stupid bitch.
But yet everything is an act to you.
You have to “perform” when the spot light is on
Did your manager say it was OK.

I can fucking bet which one of your friends he is.
Now I know why you kept me away from your friends.
All these fucking years.


That’s What You Wanted

Let me throw away every single memory.
If this is what you wanted from minute one, you should have said.
Clearly your happier acting this way then having to live inside of your head.

Tell me your doing things to help out a friend.
By the looks of things your looking at getting tag teamed.
But clearly that’s what you wanted all this time.

Telling me you weren’t into anything sexual after a few years.
It’s funny how quick that comes out of you now.
I see what came into this house, you just want to ruin your life.

Maybe it was me being to loving and caring, always trying to be there for you.
I should have let you do what you wanted from the start.
Seeing how you seem that much happier now than you were before.

If that’s who you want to be, now your free to be.
I knew someone else was involved in making your choices.
Every decision you made had to be passed through someone else.

I feel sorry for you.
I know I have trouble making decisions, like to discuss things.
Maybe even write things out to let my mind glance things over.

Hearing the lies that come out of your mouth now.
It’s just shocking, or have you finally admitted the truth.


Had An Idea

The last three or four days I haven’t just been working on my latest release and posting stuff on this blog but I’ve been thinking about what else I care to write about and while talking with my girlfriend over the last little while I’ve had an idea however at this point in time I haven’t mentioned it to her yet but I already know what she would say to it.

Anyways my idea would be called something like “Something Doesn’t Add Up”
It wouldn’t be a book of poetry or anything like that it would be in a sense a “investigative” book. I wouldn’t be posting things on this blog but instead on one of the sites I post on and I would make blog posts with links to my latest bit. But my idea surrounds my past relationship because more and more I talk about it with my currently girlfriend I keep thinking “Something Doesn’t Add Up” .. Cause in all honesty something doesn’t add up with how things happened and about how things have continued to unfold ever since September.

The idea is there but I haven’t taken it past it having an idea in my head.


Reaching My Hand Out

It’s a difficult thing to do.
Reaching my hand out, to help a fellow human being.
How does one react if rejected ?
Just walk away like nothing happened ?

What if that human does something after you reach out your hand.
Do you not feel responsible, or do you feel not worthy.
Could you have helped that person.
Or did reaching out made it worse ?

How could reaching out make it worse, your just trying to help.
Some are so set in there ways and closed minded that they’re set with one outcome.
What if you can change the course of someones life.
For the better.

To show them that they’re on the wrong path.
To show them that they have someone here for them.
That’s what one is suppose to do, is it not ?
Compassion is in all of us.

No matter what another has done, we all try to help each other.
You can’t force your help onto another.
That might just push things into the wrong direction.

What if your right and they’re reaching left because they refuse your hand.
All one can do is try and hope that the person will reach back.
To save another.
To help another.
To show another that they have help if they need it.