One Way

We all have our own thoughts on what would make a perfect society
No matter one’s up bringing we all have our own thoughts for it.
I don’t think either one of us is 100% right, nor 100% wrong.

We all hold pieces to the puzzle to make a perfect society
Even Hitler thought his idea for society was perfect, we looked at him as crazy.
Saddam was no different, we looked at him the same way.

Every group known to mankind has there own reflection of perfection.
I don’t think anyone is 100% right, nor 100% wrong
Until we all can figure out what the right way is, we will all struggle.

Each of us will have small struggles, the world will have large struggles.
Each country thinks they’re doing it right, each country has there own wrongs
Currently the way society is projected, is being forced upon each and everyone

We all have rules and regulations to live by, some we agree some we don’t.
I’m not saying that we’re 100% right, nor 100% wrong
But it will take a larger group for a change to happen.

I’m not talking a large group of people with weapons, that’s called a war.
Sadly I don’t think this planet will survive another war on the world sized scale
Think it would all come down to a push of a button, BOOM! that’s all, nothing left.

The way the world is going in this day in age, we have lots of little wars.
So many shootings in so many communities, nobody knows what’s going on.
How many innocent victims have we lost ?. Being at the wrong place, wrong time.

How many lives ruined, how many families shattered, how many questions asked ?
Yet we still have no answers
I look at the younger generation that’s growing up, I don’t know if I agree with things

Not sure if they’re being raised right, or wrong.
Will they even have a world to live in when they hit late 30s ?
I don’t know what my future will hold

At times I wonder if I’ll even be around to grow old

Kennie

Through The Pain

To some people life is a gift, the proceed to do good things to others.
To others they feel like life is a regret, they choose to do harm to others
We all have things we have to go through in our life time, both good and bad

Some of the good things will make you smile, knowing that you’ve done some good
Much of the bad will make you cry, from the pain that it has caused
Every sunrise it will cast a new light upon the day.

Allowing us to see the rest of the world that can both gain and loss by our actions
By harming another human physically or even death, your not harming just one
Your disrupting a family, a community. Your disrupting yourself

By making those choices, those choices will affect you
You have to carry that burden through your entire life
That person in your life could be trying to help you, but you refuse to let them.

Kennie

Feeling

I’m feeling lost, as I sit not sure what I should do today.
As of late I don’t know what I want to do with myself
Feeling lonely, is this a feeling that I should be embracing ?

Trying to put my thoughts together like a puzzle
While it seems like my brain keeps getting spun like a record
Just as I think I think I know what to do, it spins again

The feeling of scared washes over me
I can feel myself shake internally
My stomach clenches while I feel like I want to throw up

Is this my body feeling stressed to no end
Will there be any coming back from this
How will I feel once this feeling passes

I don’t know if I want to stay awake anymore
The day already seems long and boring
Having a hard time finding things to do to fill my day

I wonder if things will change at all
As I sit here I keep looking at the time
Can I goto bed yet

I don’t know if I’m overly tired but I just want to lay in bed
That’s where I feel like I want to be
Not sure if my body is saying it because it’s right

Or if it’s just because when I’m in bed I try to shut my brain off

Kennie

Story Of A Bitch

I know over time we all change, some for better and some for worse.
Here’s my story of a bitch…

Here’s my story of a bitch that I was with for twelve years
I’m tired of all her bullshit so fuck her and her feelings
Here’s my story of a bitch that I was with for twelve years
I’m tired of all her bullshit so fuck her and her feelings

Look at all those fake friends coming to your rescue
All trying to act tough and hide behind there devices
You continue to run your mouth
While you are still living in my house

I wish one of your friends would get in my face
I wouldn’t bat an eye at putting them in there place.
Those fake ass friends they are coming to your side saying that they’ll be better
But I already know, neither one of them could hold a candle to me.

Here’s my story of a bitch that I was with for twelve years
I’m tired of all her bullshit so fuck her and her feelings
Here’s my story of a bitch that I was with for twelve years
I’m tired of all her bullshit so fuck her and her feelings

I still can’t believe how fucking ungrateful you are
In a panic after the accident you called me, then you later retracted it
Those words are forever seared in my brain
Everytime I look at you I see your bullshit circling the drain

Your trying to live a double life, when you can’t manage to live one.
You had your chance at a decent life, till you started to act funny.
I grew suspicious so I started to watch you more closely
Knowing that something was up, I pushed eject and got myself away from that.

Here’s my story of a bitch that I was with for twelve years
I’m tired of all her bullshit so fuck her and her feelings
Here’s my story of a bitch that I was with for twelve years
I’m tired of all her bullshit so fuck her and her feelings

Since then I’ve scratched my head about you
Your parents are another story, you continue to talk shit about me to your Mom.
But clearly your parents don’t think much of you since your still living here
They would rather go on vacation then give you funding to move out.

That tells me that there’s something wrong with your parents in general
I wish for once, when you want to talk shit you would say it to my face.
After all I’ve been there for you, this is how you pay me back
Quit thinking my kindness is weakness

Here’s my story of a bitch that I was with for twelve years
I’m tired of all her bullshit so fuck her and her feelings
Here’s my story of a bitch that I was with for twelve years
I’m tired of all her bullshit so fuck her and her feelings

Here’s my story of a bitch that I was with for twelve years
I’m tired of all her bullshit so fuck her and her feelings
Here’s my story of a bitch that I was with for twelve years
I’m tired of all her bullshit so fuck her and her feelings

Kennie

A Final Chance

Look at this, the time is ticking down before you having to have surgery.
But yet your stupidity is still at a all time high.
Taking off down to Toronto to climb into his bed for one last time
Surprise you don’t make it a three day event.

You can fulfill your fifty shades of bullshit fantasies that are in your head
Making yourself feel like your something special
Would love to find out that your surgery is cancelled cause of your stupidity
I guess your finally seeing this as your final chance, one last shot if it will.

Having to climb into bed with anyone who is willing, he’s the first customer
I’m sure you would want more than that, or to direct him
Like it was a performance piece, demanding the best like it’s an act.
But the only one whose getting played is you

Always getting used, but not smart enough to see it.
I tried to be there for you, I tried to help you.
But I see you got your back up, pushed me away.
Washed your hands of me like I was just dirt.

I bet you’ll come begging for help in due time
Not sure if I’ll be here to give it to you or not
I guess it will depend on how I feel at the moment

I wonder if I’ll start to take pleasure in watching you squirm
Would like to think that you’d learn from it
But I doubt it, to learn is to adapt and I don’t think you can

Everything has to be bent your ways
Everything has to me molded to your liking
If things don’t go the way you want you ignore it till it changes
IF things don’t go the way you want you hide until it changes

This should be interesting, watching you recover
At times I’m surprised you haven’t called off the surgery
But I know you won’t.
Your life will drastically change after

Your current place of employment won’t fuck with you anymore
They will slowly push you out the door
Wonder what your going to do after that
Time will tell, I have learned that my help isn’t wanted by you.

Kennie

If I Had The Chance

If I had the chance I would have changed that day for you
That faithful day back in December of 2005
You kissed your husband for the last time the night before

He got up, went to work and you never seen him again
You got tragic news about his passing.
If I could have swapped places with him I would have.

Let him keep living and I can fade out of everyone’s memory
Never really thought myself as much, more of an after thought really
Don’t think many would have cared.

I bet it would have been a decade before people start to miss me
Even then I doubt people would have really missed me
Perhaps that would make your life the picturesque life you want.

Always saying that everything happens to you
I just sit back and watch, I know I can’t do anything about it
One can’t predict what’s going to happen tomorrow

All we can do is see what unfolds
An accident happened that day, but that’s what it was, a accident.
He done that trip thousands of times, and it was fine

One day he did it and one thing changed
Since then our lives were changed forever we just didn’t know
If I had my chance I would have swapped me for him

I’ll be the one that nobody goes to visit
I wouldn’t even worry if anyone thought about me

Kennie

Woke Up Feeling Sick

Went to bed, had trouble keeping my eyes open.
Woke up around midnight, stomach feeling tight.
Not sure if it’s feeling bloated or just ready to explode and die

Been feeling like an old man
More and more as of late, I sound like one everytime I get up or sit down.
I moan and grown, sounding like I’m in my 80’s

But in reality of it I was only born in the 80’s
Been sitting around bored out of my mind
Trying to figure out what I want to do each day

Takes me most of the day to answer that question
Then it’s trying to figure out when I want to goto bed
Plus what to watch to numb the brain to.

I sit back and stare at the world with a pair of binoculars
Trying to observe what’s going on in this day to day life
Never wanting to participate, just wanting to spectate

Don’t think I would know how to participate
But spectating has people pointing and starring right back at me.
Not the greatest life I’m living.

But I don’t see that changing
At times I would like it to
Other times I don’t think it bothers me

Always sitting here incase anyone needs me
Don’t think anyone ever does
Like an old toy I’m just on the shelf collecting dust

Kennie